[ The three of them were broken in ways that couldn't possibly be mended well before the war came to New York. Before the rooftop that Michael doesn't remember. Before Elektra was forced to play along with this tedious game to try and save the other half of her love's soul.
He's standing still, frozen in confusion and shock as Matt continues. His breath hitches a little, and he shifts back jerkily when the other man takes a step towards him. He almost bats at an outstretched hand, but something stays him. Is it the pleading? No, he's heard that before. Often. Mostly when those he fought lost too much ground to be regained.
He licks at dry lips, and his face scrunches up in upset. ]
[Matt can't forget that night. And it keeps him up. Remembering, regretting. He could have been faster. Or maybe if he had just been honest with how he had felt from the beginning than everything wouldn't have fallen apart in such a colossal way. They were orphans in this world but they had found one another. There could have been peace beyond what the grave had to offer. Though it seems these days death does not give peace anymore.
No violence in this moment so he'll take what ground he can get, a hand outstretched.]
What have they done to you, Michael?
[Though that is about the last word he can get in at all. The rushing footsteps and door open noisily.]
[ Alexandra told him that he was failed by those who should have protected him. Understood him. She promised she would not make the same mistakes that they did. But she did not have the answers that he wrestled with still. Flashes of memory that try to resurface in the night and choke him in his sleep until he wakes up and trains so he can exhaust himself into forgetting again.
The other man's hand again, closer to his face as if he might touch. He thinks, for a moment he might let him, and confusion grips him at the question. He doesn't know. He doesn't have that answer.
The footsteps break the quiet standoff, and his heart beats, this time in anger as Murakami demands to know what he's doing. Why he hasn't killed this one yet. When he moves to take his own shot, Michael reacts with an instinct he isn't sure where it is borne from, and backhands the man viciously with a cry of anger. The force of it sends him flying into the wall adjacent to them.
Michael takes the moment of violence and confusion to disappear from that place. ]
[No words, nothing. The slate is utterly blank. An open book but nothing but empty pages. Matt feels so gutted. It isn't enough that someone if not his actual brother is walking among the living once more, it's that there is no shred of familiarity there.
Don't cry, Matthew. He is having a terrible time getting a grip on himself. They're in the middle of a scrimmage and it takes so much more in him to gather himself and join with the others. And yes, he knew there would be harsh words. Fine. Whatever. They're dull pains compared to what he's feeling.
Michael Matthew Murdock where have you gone? Where are you?]
[ It isn't until the restaurant that Michael begins to question. It's mostly to himself, of course. Whispers to Elektra when the other members of the Hand can't possibly hear. Confusion.
She doesn't answer with what she knows, it will do him little good. Instead she tells him to go to a street. He goes after the threat made that if he is not of any use to them, Alexandra will kill him. He understands. He states as much. It doesn't stop him from going. His feet carry him after.
Up fire escapes and over rooftops in the middle of the day. He knows this path. It's familiar. His body moves along it as if he's done it a million times, but he just can't remember it. He stops on a rooftop at a door, and it's unlocked. It squeaks a little, used a lot, and there's a lack of dirt around the path to the door. Still the inside assaults his senses with more familiarity as he goes in.
Matthew's scent is there. There's things knocked all over the floor by the earthquake still, and he can smell old blood from bandages in the trash can near the sink in the kitchen. He lets his senses draw him around the rooms, and lets his instincts speak to what is most familiar.
Eventually it leads to the bedroom, and he curls up on one side of the bed, tucking his body up into a ball as he breathes in. He knows this place. He can feel it just out of reach of his mind. ]
[This was their home. For better or worse, they lived in these walls as one person and separate people. With only one Murdock in the vicinity it could seem cavernous. There is so much to be relayed in the silence. Busted bits of plaster from confrontations with Stick, with each other.
Matt is unaware of this intrusion. He's out in the city looking for answers in the daylight as a blind man. Both hope and despair come to him in turns. Michael is in the world. Or at lest someone wearing his skin. Funny how he thought that there was no more pain to be had here.
Sleep creeps up on Michael if he lays still enough. The subconscious creating a scenario. The man with his face close by. So close that he's on the other side of the bed.]
[ Michael can hear the history in the floor and the walls. The glass on the floor. The items in the fridge, and hanging in the closet. The soap in the bathroom.
He doesn't realize sleep is creeping up on him in the stillness until it's far too late, and the dream comes. Senses alight with it, familiarity rushes over him. There's a soreness to his body from fighting that is familiar. He can feel the warmth and movement of another body near his own.
With a groan and a huff that turns into a smile, he manages to roll over and playfully toss an edge of the blanket in the other man's direction. ]
I didn't steal them. You were out and they just happened to migrate to my side of the bed. [ Searching for anything out of the ordinary that might stand out by scent or any other sensation. ] Must not have been too bad out there, you didn't break much of a sweat.
How come you always get the quiet nights? [ He doesn't, but it's a familiar tease after all this time going out. He tucks his left arm up under the pillow so that he can rest his head and still face Matt. ]
[This whole place is haunted as well as inhabited still. And it isn't just memories around him everywhere. It's the echo of a life. They're coming back to him in waves through the silence and the damage done to his mind and body.
The person is close to him, close as a lover but the familiarity and playfulness is not that. Not at all.]
Liar.
[Matt comes up closer and gives a sharp tug. No harm, no force. They fought together what was it, days ago? He reached out to the Black Sky and called him another name.]
Just lucky.
[He smiles, the sort of a grin they both can hear but never see.]
I'm fine. Thank you for asking.
[Again loving and playful, no barbs or true swings.]
[ It's exhilarating and confusing all at once. The feel of this place. The way the memories come up and wash over him, not in overwhelming waves, but more gentle. ]
Cheater.
[ They always know when the other is telling the truth or not. Or when they are trying to hide things. He gives a soft noise of complaint at the tug, but relents after a moment to let Matt get some of the blanket. ]
Where exactly do dumpsters land on the lucky scale?
[ They can both hear it, and it earns an answering sound of one from Mike. ]
Oh, right. Last night must have been awful. Are you going to be okay? Did the stray cat follow you around and harass you for food again? She's relentless.
[ He sits up a little, and reaches out to grab at his brother, tugging to pull him off balance and into the bed. The same way they used to wrestle when they were younger. It never really was something they grew out of. ]
Sleeping in sounds great. I just need a pillow, c'mere.
[Only he settles close again, bringing his portion of the blankets to share. Being pulled upon, right on off of his feet, he wasn't ready and so the tumble is all the more dramatic. He laughs and they scuffle without any actual blows. How does it feel living through this as a passenger? Matt eventually settles, laughing and stills, pulling on Mike again to come up closer.]
No, I wish it was just that cat. She's pregnant. We should give her to the neighbor.
[ He groans in fake disbelief at that comment, but chuckles once his brother is settled. A brief wrestle and covers tucked back around them a few minutes later, and they settle. He leans up so he can kiss his brother's forehead, small and affectionate.
It's so strange that he can feel some of these feelings but still feel at a loss. ]
Again? Yeah, she'd love that, but could she handle a whole bunch of kittens as well? Was everything else okay tonight?
[Matt blinks softly and he stays still for that touch. No fighting, totally trusting his brother. Yes. That's this connection. That's this feeling. Familial and caring.]
I don't know. I hope that she'll be willing to try. It's getting cold. They won't last long out there.
[Nothing does with winter. And huddling close the way that they do as people, they're going to have a more cozy time.]
[Helping strays like themselves. That's the real irony. Matty shuts his eyes.]
I'll put it on the list.
[Of things to figure out. And none of these actions are in some grand orchestration as one would believe. Slapping on one task with the others. Check up on the usual suspects, patrol the areas that are problematic.
[ He tries not to think about it like that. It's true, though. They can't really deny it. ]
If you don't get to it, I can give it a shot one of these nights. See if she'll come over to our rooftop at least.
[ Might make it easier than a masked vigilante trying to coax a pregnant cat into a warm apartment. He's glad the last few nights have been quiet comparatively. It's a nice change of pace. Rough days seem to come in waves. ]
It was. I took the opportunity to clean up a bit. Even made us some meals for the week.
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He's standing still, frozen in confusion and shock as Matt continues. His breath hitches a little, and he shifts back jerkily when the other man takes a step towards him. He almost bats at an outstretched hand, but something stays him. Is it the pleading? No, he's heard that before. Often. Mostly when those he fought lost too much ground to be regained.
He licks at dry lips, and his face scrunches up in upset. ]
I--I'm---[ He shakes his head. ]---I don't---
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No violence in this moment so he'll take what ground he can get, a hand outstretched.]
What have they done to you, Michael?
[Though that is about the last word he can get in at all. The rushing footsteps and door open noisily.]
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The other man's hand again, closer to his face as if he might touch. He thinks, for a moment he might let him, and confusion grips him at the question. He doesn't know. He doesn't have that answer.
The footsteps break the quiet standoff, and his heart beats, this time in anger as Murakami demands to know what he's doing. Why he hasn't killed this one yet. When he moves to take his own shot, Michael reacts with an instinct he isn't sure where it is borne from, and backhands the man viciously with a cry of anger. The force of it sends him flying into the wall adjacent to them.
Michael takes the moment of violence and confusion to disappear from that place. ]
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Don't cry, Matthew. He is having a terrible time getting a grip on himself. They're in the middle of a scrimmage and it takes so much more in him to gather himself and join with the others. And yes, he knew there would be harsh words. Fine. Whatever. They're dull pains compared to what he's feeling.
Michael Matthew Murdock where have you gone? Where are you?]
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She doesn't answer with what she knows, it will do him little good. Instead she tells him to go to a street. He goes after the threat made that if he is not of any use to them, Alexandra will kill him. He understands. He states as much. It doesn't stop him from going. His feet carry him after.
Up fire escapes and over rooftops in the middle of the day. He knows this path. It's familiar. His body moves along it as if he's done it a million times, but he just can't remember it. He stops on a rooftop at a door, and it's unlocked. It squeaks a little, used a lot, and there's a lack of dirt around the path to the door. Still the inside assaults his senses with more familiarity as he goes in.
Matthew's scent is there. There's things knocked all over the floor by the earthquake still, and he can smell old blood from bandages in the trash can near the sink in the kitchen. He lets his senses draw him around the rooms, and lets his instincts speak to what is most familiar.
Eventually it leads to the bedroom, and he curls up on one side of the bed, tucking his body up into a ball as he breathes in. He knows this place. He can feel it just out of reach of his mind. ]
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Matt is unaware of this intrusion. He's out in the city looking for answers in the daylight as a blind man. Both hope and despair come to him in turns. Michael is in the world. Or at lest someone wearing his skin. Funny how he thought that there was no more pain to be had here.
Sleep creeps up on Michael if he lays still enough. The subconscious creating a scenario. The man with his face close by. So close that he's on the other side of the bed.]
Don't steal the covers again.
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He doesn't realize sleep is creeping up on him in the stillness until it's far too late, and the dream comes. Senses alight with it, familiarity rushes over him. There's a soreness to his body from fighting that is familiar. He can feel the warmth and movement of another body near his own.
With a groan and a huff that turns into a smile, he manages to roll over and playfully toss an edge of the blanket in the other man's direction. ]
I didn't steal them. You were out and they just happened to migrate to my side of the bed. [ Searching for anything out of the ordinary that might stand out by scent or any other sensation. ] Must not have been too bad out there, you didn't break much of a sweat.
How come you always get the quiet nights? [ He doesn't, but it's a familiar tease after all this time going out. He tucks his left arm up under the pillow so that he can rest his head and still face Matt. ]
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The person is close to him, close as a lover but the familiarity and playfulness is not that. Not at all.]
Liar.
[Matt comes up closer and gives a sharp tug. No harm, no force. They fought together what was it, days ago? He reached out to the Black Sky and called him another name.]
Just lucky.
[He smiles, the sort of a grin they both can hear but never see.]
I'm fine. Thank you for asking.
[Again loving and playful, no barbs or true swings.]
...let's sleep in today?
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Cheater.
[ They always know when the other is telling the truth or not. Or when they are trying to hide things. He gives a soft noise of complaint at the tug, but relents after a moment to let Matt get some of the blanket. ]
Where exactly do dumpsters land on the lucky scale?
[ They can both hear it, and it earns an answering sound of one from Mike. ]
Oh, right. Last night must have been awful. Are you going to be okay? Did the stray cat follow you around and harass you for food again? She's relentless.
[ He sits up a little, and reaches out to grab at his brother, tugging to pull him off balance and into the bed. The same way they used to wrestle when they were younger. It never really was something they grew out of. ]
Sleeping in sounds great. I just need a pillow, c'mere.
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[Only he settles close again, bringing his portion of the blankets to share. Being pulled upon, right on off of his feet, he wasn't ready and so the tumble is all the more dramatic. He laughs and they scuffle without any actual blows. How does it feel living through this as a passenger? Matt eventually settles, laughing and stills, pulling on Mike again to come up closer.]
No, I wish it was just that cat. She's pregnant. We should give her to the neighbor.
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It's so strange that he can feel some of these feelings but still feel at a loss. ]
Again? Yeah, she'd love that, but could she handle a whole bunch of kittens as well? Was everything else okay tonight?
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I don't know. I hope that she'll be willing to try. It's getting cold. They won't last long out there.
[Nothing does with winter. And huddling close the way that they do as people, they're going to have a more cozy time.]
...maybe there will be another Caramel.
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[ Especially if it would ease his brother's mind. He wants to be able to do that for him. Mike takes the opportunity to snuggle close. ]
I think you'd like that and so would Butterscotch and Mrs. Davis.
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I'll put it on the list.
[Of things to figure out. And none of these actions are in some grand orchestration as one would believe. Slapping on one task with the others. Check up on the usual suspects, patrol the areas that are problematic.
And then come home to comfort and quiet.]
...your night must have been nice, hmm?
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If you don't get to it, I can give it a shot one of these nights. See if she'll come over to our rooftop at least.
[ Might make it easier than a masked vigilante trying to coax a pregnant cat into a warm apartment. He's glad the last few nights have been quiet comparatively. It's a nice change of pace. Rough days seem to come in waves. ]
It was. I took the opportunity to clean up a bit. Even made us some meals for the week.
[ Simple. Mundane, even. ]
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Matt smiles and rests his head against Mike.]
Thank you so much. God, that's gonna make things so much easier.
[For the both of them.]
What would I do without you?
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You can say it, I'm amazing.
[ Better excuses than the questionable food carts around town sometimes. He laughs a little and sighs dramatically. ]
Oh, crash and burn, totally. Some hugely dramatic affair. Hollywood type thing.
[ It's then that he rouses from sleep with a car horn not a block away and the memory still lingering in his mind. ]