[ If there comes a time that the plan comes to light, it isn't bound to have Mike care for her much more. He still doesn't trust her. He wishes, sometimes, for his brother's sake that he could. ]
If he wanted me dead that night I'd be dead. I have no doubt about that.
[ Said steadily, and not too quickly. It's facts. Not a quick rush to his defense. ]
I'm not saying it was the best experience of my life here. [ A deeper breath. ] He doesn't care about Daredevil, not in that way. If he did, I wouldn't have made it off that other rooftop. He wouldn't have just kept me there trying to make me into something I'm not.
[ Or trying to get himself killed. He was hoping Mike would be able to pull the trigger, then. He can hear it when he thinks back to the rooftop, and that night.
Not that it ended well. There are some major things that he and Frank will never agree on. Mike isn't God. He can't judge. Maybe he forgives a little too easy sometimes. ]
I'm not sure how to explain it, Matt. I wish---I wish I could.
[ He knows his brother is frustrated and worried. He wishes he could do more. His questions aren't unfounded. How can he explain what he's already felt? What more he felt in just the past 12 hours even? ]
I don't think it will. I can't explain what I've---I've felt with him. There's more to him than what we first witnessed. I've gotten the chance to learn that. He's shared that with me.
[ As utterly impossible as that sounds. ]
Thank you. [ It means more than most people might recognize were they party to this conversation. ] I'm not asking you to trust him. I am asking you to trust me.
[Matt's face remains tense, pinched as he strains to stay neutral. Sure they are aware that he's got the temper of the pair. How many more explosion would be tolerated before Mike is tired of dealing? Is that it? He swallows and nods.
It does sound impossible.]
I trust you, of course I trust you.
[They share so many secrets. Not just the dual life, their skill, their mistakes and successes. They share everything.]
...I'm difficult. I know that. I'm--I'm trying. [And must try harder if he wants to keep the peace.] Mikey, we've come to far for us to just crumble. I don't want to lose you.
[The weight of it all is so much more than it had been as children.]
[ Mike doesn't think it would take any explosions of temper to drive him away. It's also a topic he doesn't like to think of. The what ifs of what could drive them apart. ]
I'm not exactly a saint here, Matty. I know you're trying. I'm---I am too. The last thing I want is to lose you.
[That's what he needed to hear. And Matt being Matt he would never ask for such an admission all by itself. He comes close again and wordlessly spreads his arms. An embrace? Can they do that?]
I just--I know it's not realistic to--to try and protect you.
[Doing what they do in the shadows, they're going to get hurt.]
[ It might make it easier sometimes if he would, but they each have their quirks. Their hang ups. His throat gets a little tight when he senses him there close with arms open, and he shifts to pull him the rest of the way into a hug. His voice is a little muffled when he speaks. ]
[Arms lock around him, balled into his clothes. Matt can smell Frank on his clothes. He says nothing and still presses his face to Mike's shoulder. For a second he just nods to answer before turning his face up more.]
Just you--and me. That's it.
[That's what's important. He is a hypocrite and trying to hide from his own feelings regarding Elektra. It's a disservice for Mike to be sure.]
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If he wanted me dead that night I'd be dead. I have no doubt about that.
[ Said steadily, and not too quickly. It's facts. Not a quick rush to his defense. ]
I'm not saying it was the best experience of my life here. [ A deeper breath. ] He doesn't care about Daredevil, not in that way. If he did, I wouldn't have made it off that other rooftop. He wouldn't have just kept me there trying to make me into something I'm not.
[ Or trying to get himself killed. He was hoping Mike would be able to pull the trigger, then. He can hear it when he thinks back to the rooftop, and that night.
Not that it ended well. There are some major things that he and Frank will never agree on. Mike isn't God. He can't judge. Maybe he forgives a little too easy sometimes. ]
I'm not sure how to explain it, Matt. I wish---I wish I could.
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And that's not going to change, Mike? He won't suddenly decide the job wasn't done?
[The worry there, in his mouth and in the air now. Completely honest.]
I know you care about him. And--and if that's your choice, that's your choice.
[Which is so much more progressive and without an ultimatum than the first portion of the night made it out to be.]
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I don't think it will. I can't explain what I've---I've felt with him. There's more to him than what we first witnessed. I've gotten the chance to learn that. He's shared that with me.
[ As utterly impossible as that sounds. ]
Thank you. [ It means more than most people might recognize were they party to this conversation. ] I'm not asking you to trust him. I am asking you to trust me.
[ Maybe the rest can come later. ]
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It does sound impossible.]
I trust you, of course I trust you.
[They share so many secrets. Not just the dual life, their skill, their mistakes and successes. They share everything.]
...I'm difficult. I know that. I'm--I'm trying. [And must try harder if he wants to keep the peace.] Mikey, we've come to far for us to just crumble. I don't want to lose you.
[The weight of it all is so much more than it had been as children.]
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I'm not exactly a saint here, Matty. I know you're trying. I'm---I am too. The last thing I want is to lose you.
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I just--I know it's not realistic to--to try and protect you.
[Doing what they do in the shadows, they're going to get hurt.]
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I know why you try, though.
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Just you--and me. That's it.
[That's what's important. He is a hypocrite and trying to hide from his own feelings regarding Elektra. It's a disservice for Mike to be sure.]